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2014...
Well its been 2014 for 10 days now, and I haven't wrote a single blog, what the heck!! I will write a Christmas blog one day soon, but for now I'll just say it was a great one, lots and lots of family time and happiness I loved it!

10/01/2014 (Happy Birthday Mattythefattyboombatty)

Wake up its a beautiful day!

This week has been a huge mix of emotions. I am generally a very very unorganised person, I have visions where I think I'm organised but I really struggle to stick to times and to actually organise things, it is one of my dreams to be organised as everything would be so much better and easier if I were. I used to always be late for everything, I even got a certificate in college for "Never being on time" at that time it was funny but today I was thinking about it, I used to disrupt my class everyday walking in late, I nearly made my teacher look bad in one of her assessments  I always used to forget things and was just so hectic and it eventually made me bored and unhappy, when I absolutely LOVED my course. As I mentioned in a post before I got distinctions in everything, I was even personally recruited to go and work on a cruise ship as a beauty therapist there, and any job I applied for at high class spa's I got, but at the end of the year the only award I got was for being late, when I know I could have got student of the year or any of the top awards, sometimes I do really frustrate myself. Anyway, this year I made a goal to get up at 8am, I LOVE my sleep so much and very very rarely would ever wake up at 8am, I mean throughout my whole life I would sleep in till the very last minute, usually past 8 when school starts at 9am and once again teachers would be on my back, I would forget everything, I wouldnt have time to look nice etc, but I never learned! When I got married I still slept in all the time, for absolutely no reason, I was just completely lazy. Now I have baby Kelvin, and I hardly get any sleep so I sleep for as long as I can, sometimes I would get up at 10 and sometimes later, baby Kelvin wakes up most hours in the night so I am constantly interrupted and he lately got into the habit of sleeping across my chest or cuddling up to me, I obviously love that, I love cuddling my little Prince all night but after 8 months I decided its a little bit much, I need to get baby Kelvin into a routine and sort myself out. So after 7 days still I hadnt been getting up, still I would mope around the house and feel awful about myself, didnt really get dressed didnt really do anything then go back to sleep. Kelvin always tries to encourage me, but I can be quite stubborn and I would just think you dont understand your not up all night and I would often get upset or angry at Kelvin trying to help me. Then on Tuesday evening we took a trip to Ikea, we got baby Kelvin a high chair and a new cot, we took one side off the cot and pushed it right up against our bed, our bed now looks like a queen size yeyy. (Might I also add how much we LOVE Ikea  there are sooo many bargains and it makes us feel really motivated to have a nice house.) So that night I fed baby Kelvin (still breast feeding) and then placed him into his bed, and any time he woke up in the night I just rolled over fed or comforted him and rolled back to my area of bed. It was amazing!! He still woke up like normal but I actually slept, I slept on my front, actually got to hug Kelvin in the night and could spread out as much as possible, the next day I woke up at around 8.30am with Kelvin. I had a shower with baby Kelvin, got us both dressed, did my make-up, blow dried my hair, fed baby Kelvin, actually had breakfast myself, cleaned the dishes, made the bed, did some laundry and made soup all before 12.00pm, It was such a great morning! I felt sooo accomplished and actually really happy. Baby Kelvin then had a sleep for over 1 hour ahhh, he usually only sleeps for 20mins, and again he slept in his cot not on my knee, after he woke up we went for a walk to the shop which I havent done for weeks then I was able to make dinner and just relax. It was sooo amazing how just waking up early made such a difference. I did the same the next day, Baby Kelvin didnt sleep as well on Wednesday night so I was super tired the next day, but I had to take Kelvin to the airport for work so I had to be up at 7.30 anyway, so I woke up, and the baby did too, we came home and had a little nap as we were both really tired but then we did all the things we needed to and had another successful day, I even made a pie, with home made crust, although for some reason that did take 3 hours! :/ Now its Friday I woke at at 8.30 today and me and Kelvin were able to have a lovely snuggle session before he worked, normally I am complaining about waking up and being so tired (at 10am) so Kelvin just goes straight to work. It can sometimes be very hard trying to split myself between the baby and Kelvin, I love both of them sooo much and want to spend all my time with both of them, but obviously baby Kelvin has more needs so Kelvin I guess I sometimes push aside, I definitely do when I wake up late anyway because Im just moody. I hope he knows how much I really do love and appreciate him, he is an amazing husband so thoughtful and caring and he is a great Daddy, I am very blessed to have married such a perfect man! Anywho back to Friday, I got up had my shower, did my make-up blah blah blah and was actually rushing Kelvin along to give me his card so I could go out, today we were heading out shopping at 11.50 rather than 3pm, I looked nice, felt great and baby Kelvin was happy. He slept for an hour before we headed in, so I was able to read some of my Sheri Dew book "Women and the Priesthood" its a great book, I got it for Christmas but have hardly been able to look at it. I have a few favourite quotes so I will share them, i just need to remember to keep a notepad with me so I can write them down! I realised whilst reading my book that the only reason I havent read my book before is because I woke up late, I dont have time to do anything because Im rushing about, usually while baby Kelvin sleeps in the car I sit there and rush doing my make-up as quiet as possible before he wakes up, and when I say make-up I mean like bronzer and mascara, this week I've been able to have an eyeliner flick everyday and actually wear my nice usual make-up. I am just feeling so accomplished and so of worth, I think I might have already said that, oh well! It is just soo amazing being organised and having a plan and structure, oh might I also add, today baby Kelvin had almost a full fruit pot, lots of water, a few rice cakes, some baby food in a pouch and just before bed ate 2 bowls of Liga and milk (5 biscuits)  without even complaining once, even opening his mouth for them! Baby Kelvin is 8 months and I just couldn't understand why he didnt want food, I have been trying to give him structure this week and it has helped sooo much, I really needed it too, as before I was just feeding all day everyday and it can sometimes make me feel weak. From Wednesday onwards this has really been a fabulous week and I feel amazing!! I really hope I can keep it up. P.s I have also developed a habbit of praying on my knees. Sometimes I really struggle to pray, not because I dont believe in God, because I do, but I just feel a bit weird praying sometimes, but for some reason, being on my knees helps soo much! It could be because I am just focussed on praying, nothing is distracting me, Im not half asleep and Im not rushing but It has been great to actually pray and to always feel like my prayers are being heard, again hopefully I can keep this up. Oh I just remembered I was watching a video in Primary on Sunday and it was the Mormon message "I am a child of God" and I thought of baby Kelvin the whole time whilst watching it. I then came home and read over our song to learn this year "The family is of God" its such a cute song, I love it already, part of the words read..."A mother’s purpose is to care, prepare,To nurture and to strengthen all her children.
She teaches children to obey, to pray,
To love and serve in the family"
 the words "teaches children to pray" really stuck out to me and I realised that the only way baby Kelvin will ever pray is if I teach him, the words "I see my mother kneeling with our family each day" from Love is spoken here, entered my mind and I thought I need to kneel! In the video a parent is sat with their child praying, kneeling against the bed, for me that is what my role is as a Mother, to teach my perfect little angels (okay crying here ahhh) how important the Gospel is, and that whenever they need help with ANYTHING in life they just need to pray and speak to Heavenly Father because he is always there for them, just like I will always be, but sometimes he can help them more than I can.